the memoir of: when you are broken

when you are broken,

you'll always look back and not forward.

the most common thing to do.

but the worst solution ever.

when you are broken,

your heart ache,

and you feel like you want to smash everything that's in between your fear and the heaviness in your lungs.

when you are broken,

you will suffer,

and there will be no medication that can cure you.

when you are broken,

your hands will tremble,

your face will be the monster of your worst nightmare,

you will swallow those salty water,

and the next thing you know,

you are curling up inside the blanket of madness,

and you will hate your pillow because it cannot contain the tears coming out from you.

when you are broken,

you will feel lonely.

and nothing overthrow the melody of your cries that echos endlessly because you cannot stop.

you will be bruised,

you will never forget,

but you can get up,

put a smile,

and move on.

because that is all you can do.

you live your life like you use to,

and then when the time is not right,

you will fall back into those dark suffering episode.

but even with all of this broken parts,

and all this strings inside you that is not attach to anything anymore,

you will always survive.

because that is all we can do best.

surviving,

and living,

and lying,

and crying,

and laughing,

and it's not going to stop.

because there is this long path ahead of you,

and you will walk through those path,

and when you are old enough,

to realise,

to be clear of the perspective of life,

you will find those answers.

you just have to keep looking.

because in this life,

the only one you can rely on is yourself.